Reminders of you.

This picture reminds me of you, my daughter.
Her graceful beauty, fine bone structure and far away look, all reminders of you.
I miss you so very much.
The waft of perfume as you pass.
Your mere presence within these walls.

You Left

Dear Kitten,

You left before we could really talk about what had happened.I wish you hadn't left.
None of what happened was very nice you know that baby, but you have played your part in it all coming to a head the way it did. None of us are really with out blame. We all played our parts in the lead up to that day.

But I don't want this to be a you did, he said, she was, he's this!!!!
What would be the point in that?

I guess I always knew that you would be the first to leave home, I just never thought it would be this way.
I came back the next day, but I can't find you. Maybe I should look harder for you, but in a way I feel that it is you who should really make the first move.
That might seem harsh, almost completely against all that I am as a parent.
However for a long time now you have been running circles around me and I need to step back from you for a while.
Call it selfish if you wish, but I call it self preservation. A need to gather up my thoughts and re-group myself.

It's not that I don't love you, maybe I love you too much.
I just think right now we need some space between us, but I do miss you so very, very much.

Where ever you are I wish you to be happy and peaceful within yourself.
I love you Kitten,
Mug xx